One of the hardest things.

I am already starting to think about what my days are going to be like as Kaitlyn gets older. I am going to want to do all these fun things with her that a stay at home mom would get to do. Yet I have to work. Since truly I am a work at home mom (well mom to be right now). The work that I do now is going to determine what sort of things we are going to be able to do a year from now.

Then why is it so hard to want to get the job done sometimes?

I have found myself getting less and less done and wondering why there is nothing happening with the business. How about because I am doing less and less. Like yesterday for example. When I got home from doing the two shows. I don't think I did anything else with the business. I worked on finances, or personal finances all day - which could have waited until after work hours or at least until Keith got home.

Ugh. We have so much staring us in the face and I feel like I am not holding up my end of the deal. I guess putting it out there on this blog for the world to see, especially since my blog is linked to my facebook account I am trying to hold myself accountable in some weird way.

Happy Anniversary

Today I celebrate being married two years! I am married to a wonderful man. He has given me so much than I could have ever asked for. He is supportive, loving, funny, good looking, respectful, helpful, honest and always full of surprises. I am so looking forward to our anniversary date tonight!

Keith - the man that I love, respect and adore. Thank you for being you and thank you for everything you do for me and our family.

I love you!

Reasons I love my job

As most of you know I own a preschool entertainment company. I love my job. Not the just because I am my own boss, not just because I make my own hours - honestly if I worked a 'real job' I would work less hours, not just because I can work in my pajamas if I wanted to.

I love my job because what other job can you come with a fantastic idea, implement it and know that it will bring the exact results you are anticipating without having to run it past anyone to make sure it is okay that you do it?

How many of you are are at 2 in the afternoon painting river rocks and egg cartons? Seriously?

What a realization.

On Tuesday September 1, I hit 24 weeks pregnant. I was just thinking about how far we had come. We found out I was pregnant at 8 weeks. 16 weeks earlier, then I thought a little more and the baby will be here in 16 more weeks. (Hopefully she will come a little earlier than she is supposed to - December 14th would be great!) I sat there and I thought - by the end of the this year I am going to have a little girl in my arms. Until recently she was going to be the last one born of my group of friends, well then more and more of us keep finding out that we are expecting. I don't even know how many at this point!

This is something that I have always wanted. When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I always said a teacher or a mommy. When Keith and I got married we did want to enjoy being husband and wife only for a little while, about two years. Well we have gotten that because next Tuesday is our 2 year anniversary.

Life is changing. It's exciting and nerve-racking all at the same time. We have so many things that we need to do, yet we want to just enjoy every moment. Like making a pile of pancakes for breakfast - all because it was a craving.

I have been very blessed throughout this pregnancy. Everything is coming back normal. Sure, I am still sick quite often, but I have figured out how to make it manageable. Through trial and error and more importantly my friends that are already moms and moms-to-be that are further along than me.

I am pretty excited that when I look down all I see is belly -


and that is because our little girl is in there growing to be one healthy little girl. I hope she is active when she comes out as she is when she is in there.

Kaitlyn Alexis Hickman I can't wait to meet you.

Precious and Weird all at the same time

So last night we are laying in bed and the baby kicked. It must have been a good one because my tummy jumped where it happened. I thought it was so precious, there is our little girl letting us know she is there. Then Daddy - "That is just weird, so not natural."

That's my husband - a very unique perspective. I wouldn't change it even if I could.