Forgotten Motto

I have forgotten my motto over that last few weeks. I have let life live on and got swept up in the stress, crankiness, and down right moodiness. I feel like I have not laughed until I cried in ages. I felt like I have stopped loving everyone, including myself. That is not who I am. I live - I laugh - I love.

SO what happened that I go all swept up in life? I let all the distractions do what they will do -- distract. I let family members take me away from what I need to do. I have let the decisions of others affect my happiness. I stopped reading- things that keep me focused. I stopped listening - to praise and worship, educational materials, even enjoyable music. I started listening to the negative trash that people eagerly flow from mouths of people I know and people that I don't. I let topics become conversations that shouldn't.

What can I do???

I can start again. Start reading - things that help me grow. Grow as a woman, a Christian, a business owner, a wife. I can refocus. Refocus by simply moving my work area to a place where I can concentrate. I need to take time. Time for what I need to do, what I want to do, take time for me and take time for my Lord.

People think that I work all the time. I do. I am a busy woman. I work a job with crazy hours. I own two businesses, I write and I scrapbook. That is a busy life, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I have goals. I need to make my goals happen. Sitting back and letting the world take me where it will is not the answer.

People may think that I don't have my priorities in the right place. That just means that you have not really looked at my life. What I do is rewarding and rejuvenating. I go to bed at night knowing that I did everything I could that day for me and my family. Yes I work for someone else, but I do that because I choose to.

I lost my focus. Now that I realized that all I need to do is manage my time and get what I need to get done during the day. That is the easy part.

LiveLaughLove

So much to do and no desire

Have you ever had those days? The days when you have so much to do and you just don't want to do any of it? I have absolutely no desire to do anything today than sit in the recliner and be online. Could it be that I am losing over 12 hours of pay... I think I am up to 16 now ... for enforcing the rules. I think that is rather off, but when you work with the mental health individuals things happen.

Could I not want to get up and do things because the floor is so cold and I just don't want to put my feet on it? Could it be that my list is very long and if I just relax one more day the pixies will come and do it all for me? Could it be that I am just sad - sad that my husband had to go back to work and our business did not work the way we had wanted.

Could it be a little of all of those things? Could it be that I am letting forces I cannot control take over me? Could it be that I am not leaning on my tower of strength to get me through my days when I just want to hide?

Maybe instead of blogging about all of this I should just get up and do something. That sounds like a good idea. Maybe I should at least get my list and really see what is on it. I may have already done some of the things on it and I could just cross them out.

Maybe I should but some socks on and it would eliminate part of my reasons to sit.

It is time to get on with living laughing and loving.

xoxo

Addicted

I have to admit that I am addicted to a new song. "Addicted" by Saving Abel. Here is what I find so interesting. I have become addicted to a song hearing the edited version. The only reason I know that I have become addicted to an edited version is because on the way back from Wisconsin today I heard it on a rock station in Indiana. I was shocked when I heard the different lyrics.

This prompted me to look up the lyrics. I already thought the song very sexual, then I read the real lyrics and it is SO much more sexual than before.

Real Lyrics.

I'm so addicted to
All the things you do
When your going down on me (edited rolling around with me)
In between the sheets
All the sounds you make
With every breath you take
Its unlike anything
when you're loving me

oh girl lets take it slow
so as for you well you know where to go
i want to take my love and hate you till the end

its not like you to turn away
from all the bullsh*t i cant take (edited from all the positions that we take)
it's not like me to walk away

i'm so addicted to all the things
you do when your going down on me
in between the sheets
all the sounds you make with every breathe you take
its unlike anything
when you're loving me

yeahh

i know when it's getting rough
all the times we spend
when we try to make
this love something better than
just making love again
its not like you to turn away
all the bullsh*t i cant take
just when i think i can walk away,

i'm so addicted to all the things
you do when your going down on me
in between the sheets
all the sounds you make
with every breathe you take
its unlike anything

i'm so addicted to the things you do
when your going down on me
all the sounds you make with every breath you take
its unlike anything when you're loving me
when you're loving me

i can not make it through
all the things you do
theres just got to be more to you and me

i'm so addicted to all the things you do
when your going down on me
in between the sheets
all the sounds you make with every breath you take
its unlike anything
its unlike anything

i'm so addicted to
all the things you do
when your going down on me

all the sounds you make with every breath
you take its unlike anything
i'm so addicted to you
addicted to you


I think it is a great song, but I definately would not listen to any version with a child in the car. The edited one is still very sexual.

Life is about to change

Life is changing in my world.

My family, whom I love very deeply, is moving to Ohio. For the last 6 years and 11 months we have lived 3 states apart. That is all ending, for the most part. They are on their way here. They are making the journey from Milwaukee, Wisconsin to Milford, Ohio. Mom, Dad, Joe and Rocky are on going to stay. Melissa however will be returning to Wisconsin. My hope is that she will like to come join us, but she is 24 and will make her own decisions.

I am excited about the changes and nervous at the same time. This is a very typical emotional mix for me. Especially when change is involved.

My husband, dog and I will do what we always do. We will roll with the punches while we Live, Laugh and Love.

xoxo

Out Raged

The following note was posted on my facebook account.

I do not consider myself a very political person. To be honest I have been
struggling this past election season. Up until this year, I have basically
agreed with democrats, and that is the way I voted. Well this year I started to
listen to all of the nominees. Today I have realized. It is time to PRAY. We
need to pray that our country elects the right person for this job. I will be
honest, you do need to elect the person that is right for you and your life. I
am going to take my soap box here and put a few things out there.

First: We live in a Republic. We are a capitalistic and free enterprise
country. We are not Socialist nation. Now I am not calling Obama a Socialist.
However, many of his thoughts and what his plans seem to be very socialist.

I don't totally understand this redistribution of wealth thing. The way
that I understand it is basically taking from the rich to give to the poor.
Okay. I will say this. I am not rich by any means. However, I do know that the
reason I am in the financial situation I am in is 100% based on my decisions. I
am 100% capable of getting myself out of this situation. There is no reason why
people who have done the hard work should get it taken away and given to the
people who won't work for it.

Second: The American Dream. If we are not careful who we elect this could
turn in to the American Nightmare. Under Obama it is totally okay to pursue your
dreams. Don't you dare achieve it though. When you do we are going to tax the
daylights out of you because you have to take care of the people who won't do
anything for themselves.

Thirdly: You are who you associate with. If you associate with questionable
people, that makes me question you.

So what I ask is to pray. As a nation we need to pray. Pray that the
candidates have wisdom to make the right decisions. Ask the Lord to open their
eyes, and open their ears. Use the in gates more than the out gate of the mouth.
We also need to pray that everyone who is able goes out to vote. We need to pray
that the voting public does what they feel is best for them. However, we also
need to ask God to ensure that the proper candidate gets in the office. We know
that they are both Christians and yes we are to give to the poor and help those
who can't help themselves. We need to pray and pray hard. God please work here.
I as,k if you are reading this to stand in agreement with me. You may not agree
with the points that I have mentioned, but you can stand in agreement with the
fact that we need to pray!

It was obvious that my passive aggressive cousin had read it when I read the following status update. "___ is tired of the rich getting richer, and people who think the "American Dream" is about money. There is no money in the Constitution."

In my outrage I got home from work and asked my husband. "Can you explain to me what the American Dream is?" His response was "I understand it to be totally free. To be able to do what you want when you want." I then asked him if money was involved in it. He said, "Well, yes. You can't make it in this world without money."

I guess then I need to pose the question to my cousin what his view of the American Dream is. I know that for me it is to be successful and to acheive your dreams, not just pursue them. If the American Dream is just about pursuing your dreams then I am in the wrong country. My dream is to be successful and not have to rely on anyone else to provide for my families needs. Then to teach and spread The Word of God. If that offends you well then excuse me, but that is who I am and I am American.

I can't be too mad at my cousin, he has his opinions and he is entitled to them. People just need to remember that opinions are the cheapest commodity in the world. Everyone has millions.


Second outrage --

Why are we talking about Sarah Palin's clothes??? Why are we not talkint about the real issues!!!!